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for colored girls…. A Tribute To Ntozoke Shange

This past Saturday, Ntozake Shange, author of for colored girls…., died at the age of 70.  In tribute to her legacy, I wanted to share this piece as tribute to her, written in March 2015.   I was 24 at the time the piece was written.  


I fell in love with the title.   

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I was 19, ten days away from turning 20, when Tyler Perry’s adaptation of Ntozake Shange’s choreopoem debuted in theatres.  The all-star cast: Kimberly Elise, Janet Jackson, Loretta Devine, Thandie Newton, Anika Noni Rose, Kerry Washington, Phylicia Rashad, Whoopi Goldbery; the promotional posters: a kaleidoscope of purples, blues, yellows and reds spattered across a white space to creating a woman’s haunting gaze, drips of paint running down from her marble eyes like tears; the movie still: the actresses frozen in an embrace on a rooftop in Harlem, the colors of their clothes appearing saturated in comparison to the grey evening of their surroundings.

All of these could have, probably should have, enticed me.

But I fell in love with the title.

for colored girls who have considered suicide/ when the rainbow is enuf. 

for colored girls…. is many things.  It’s fiction.  It’s non-fiction.  It’s a collection of poems.  It’s a play.  It’s a dance routine.  It’s defiant.  It’s proud.  It’s a declaration of independence.

But 19-year-old me didn’t know that.  I only knew the title spoke to something deep within me and I needed to figure out what it was saying.  I had to read the book before I could see the movie.  I had to understand what a rainbow was and what made it “enuf.”  I ordered the book online.  When it arrived, I shut myself in my dorm and prepared to be enraptured.

“The stage is in darkness.  Harsh

music is heard as dim blue lights

come up.  One after another, seven

women run onto the stage from

each of the exits.  They all freeze in

postures of distress.  The follow

spot picks up on the lady in brown.  She

comes to life and looks around at

the other ladies.  All of the others

are still.  She walks over to the lady

in red and calls to her.  The lady

in red makes no response. “

So began for colored girls…. I settled in, nestled beneath my pastel blue and purple covers, preparing to read it like a play.  It didn’t take long for me to realize that wouldn’t work.


lady in brown

dark phrases of womanhood

of hever havin been a girl

half-notes scattered

without rhythm/ no tune

distraught laughter fallin…”

It was like reading Shakespeare, except Shakespeare was a woman, and spoke slang.

I vividly remembering reading it in one sitting, highlighting passages of beautiful language, words that bumped against my own mixture of truths from the colored women.  Like the lady in orange:

“…but a real dead lovin is here for you now/ cuz I don’t know anymore/ how to avoid my own face wet with my tears/ cuz I had convinced myself colored girls had no right to sorrow/ & I lived & loved that way & kept sorrow on the curb/ allegedly for you…”

And the lady in purple:

“I said yes/ this is who I am waiting for

& to come with you/ I hadta bring everythin

the dance & the terror

the dead musicians & the hope

& those scars I had hidden wit smiles and good fuckin

lay open….”

I highlighted all through my book.

But I was 19.  And it was my first time ever reading something so uniquely different.  I had read Shakespeare and this wasn’t that.  It was a play in verse but it was also a song.  It was also a dance.  It was raw emotion.

When I turned the last page, my mind swirled.  I crafted the jumble of words into a beautiful representation of love ache, something I felt all the more linked to because I was experiencing my first adult version of it.  I didn’t really grasp much else besides how the words made me feel in relation to my own melodrama unfolding.  Of course, some stories were vivid, like the lady in red’s recounting of a father grappling with PSTD dropping his two little kids out the high rise apartment window because their mother wouldn’t marry him.  There was no misconstruing that story.  But some of the other women’s tales were just blurs.

When I went to see Tyler Perry’s adaption I couldn’t compare the movie to the text because I couldn’t even determine what I had even read.

Now I am 24, five years older than I was then.  for colored girls… is 40 years old this year and it makes so much more sense to me now.  It is very easy to interpret for colored girls… as just a recollection of love and loss, to see the ladies in their colors as just downtrodden, broken-hearted women at the end of their rope.

But the true meaning comes after the line break of the title.  It comes obscured in the mashup of structures in the piece.  It comes in Shange’s purposeful decision to use colloquialisms and “typos” throughout her writing.  It even comes in the meaning of Shange’s name, which she changed from Paulette Williams in 1971, four years before for colored girls… debuted: Ntozake meaning “She who comes into her own things” and Shange, “she who walks like a lion.”

The rainbow, that phrase that had pulled me in, is the crux.  The women in their colors make up the rainbow, make up their own salvation.

For colored girls…. had to be a hybrid of things, for it work.  It needed the beauty of poetry, the sensuality of dance, the fluidity of story, the production of play, to encompass the full scope of Shange’s lens.

She found inspiration in the Women’s Studies Program and Sonoma State College and then coupled her education with dance classes.

Courtesy Bettmann / Getty Images

“With dance, I discovered my body more intimately than I had imagined possible,” wrote Shange in 1976, a year into the success of her choreopoem.  “With the acceptance of the ethnicity of my thighs & backside, came a clearer understanding of my voice as a woman & as a poet.  The freedom to move in space, to demand of my own sweat a perfection that could continually be approached, though never known, waz poem to me, my body & mind ellipsing, probably for the first time in my life…”

Beneath each of the dances, the monologues, the poetry, the stories, Shange is telling her own story of how she came to explore and understand her womanhood.  And, because her story couldn’t be adequately explained in any one structure, just as any of the stories by ladies in color can’t adequately be described by one emotion, Shange invented her own art form and named it “choreopoem,” a combination of poetry, dance, music and song.

Shange needed to discover and embrace herself to debut such an unconventional art form.  That is also what each of the ladies in color in for colored girls…. is seeking to do.  Despite the traumas they’ve endured, the pasts they can’t forget or escape, the women each seek and find the courage to embrace themselves and discover the freedom that comes from within.

I am 24, eight months and seven days away from turning 25 and I am now in love with for colored girls…

But truthfully, the love started with the title.


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